What annoys me most

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I'm at this point in my life where what annoys me THE MOST is people telling me to go back to work. Seriously, why don't you learn to handle your own life and leave mine the hell alone!

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I'm sorry if I sound angry here but I am seriously annoyed.

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After all, this is MY life we're talking about.

And if my husband is not even making a fuss about it, then who are you to tell me otherwise, huh?

It's not like as if I'm depending on you for food or clothes or a roof over my head.

But if you want to provide me with these financial aids, then by all means, go ahead, and you can have ALL the say you want about me going back to work.

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Perhaps you meant it as a joke.

Perhaps you did not.

But I'm sorry to say that you got me at the wrong time.

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You do not know the first thing about what I plan to do with my life and how I want to live it. You don't even bother to ask.

So do me a favour and just butt out.

Perhaps YOU should get YOUR life straightened out first because as far as I can see, it's much more screwed up than mine will ever be!

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So take that!

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So what if I have a maid?!

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You know, people seem to think that my life is all easy peasy just because I now have a maid to help me out. Well, think again!

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Because UNLIKE most people who get their maids to do everything in the house, I don't. I'm still in charge of my house, of the people in my house, and how I like things to run in my house.

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It's absolutely annoying when I get comments like, "Wah, nowadays you very free la, no need to do anything, maid do everything for you".

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Correction.

I may have a maid, and she helps me clean the house, but other than that, I do everything else myself.

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First and foremost, I look after Renee MYSELF!

I feed her, bathe her, change her diapers, entertain her and play with her, teach her, read to her, take her for her evening walks, cut her nails, watch over her. In short, Renee is still MY responsibility and I still do my motherly duties as I should.

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So, NO, I'm NOT VERY FREE.

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Please ar, I'm not the type of mothers that leave the maid to do everything, including look after their children ok. In fact, the last person I trust to handle Renee is my maid....or anyone else for that matter, except my hubby.

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The most I'd do, is to ask the maid to watch over Renee while I need to go online, and even then, I make sure they are within my eye sight and hearing distance.

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And I cook the meals in the house.

Yes, my maid helps me prepare the ingredients, dice the garlic, onions, what not, and sometimes, I ask her to cook the simple dishes, like fried eggs, or stir-fry vegetables, but that is ONLY if I'm busy with Renee or when I have to put Renee down for her nap.

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Other than that, I do all the cooking myself.

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So, please, think again before you come tell me that I'm very free because I have a maid.

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A maid is a maid.

Not a chef.

Not a babysitter.

She just helps me keep the house clean.

That's all.

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So, take that!

She....

...made me go through each song on my playlist and while each song started, she shook her head to tell me she doesn't like it and to skip to the next

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...shook her head to every song that I played for her and when I completed one full cycle on my playlist, she made me repeat it again, and again, she shook her head to every song that played

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...made me go through my playlist 5 times while she shook her head at every song

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...refused to eat her lunch and clamped up when the spoon was near her mouth

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...spat out every single grain of rice which I successfully forced into her mouth, and then opens her mouth for more, only to spit it out again

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...made me go through my playlist another 3 times

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...made me stop, take a deep breathe and count to 10 countless times that day, to stop myself from strangling her

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...kept trying to pull my laptop onto the floor

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...she sat down and screamed her head off when I did not give her what she wanted

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...really made me feel like killing her. Like REALLY KILLING HER!!!

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And then, she...

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...made me laugh when she imitated my maid catching mosquitoes

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...made me smile when she knew I was angry and came to kiss me and hug me

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SIGH....

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how do I deal with this every single day?

Still a student

Over the weekend, hubby dropped me off at One Utama so that I could have a little bit of 'me' time, while he brought Renee back to see his parents who lived just around the corner.

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I was ecstatic!

It's been too damn long since I last walked into a shopping complex without my entourage and I just felt so absolutely free! No Renee for me to worry over, or watch over, or ran after, or scream at. No maid to stress me up, to give me a headache, or give me cause to fear she might take the opportunity to run away.

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And so, I happily spent the next 2 hours window shopping (no money) and oogling at things that i really liked but cannot buy.

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Of course it wasn't that bad la.

I did buy myself a nice dress for CNY, and some casual tops to wear with either leggings or shorts.

I bought batteries for Renee's new dressing table which can 'sing' and light-up.

And I bought some recipe books for toddlers, to help give me more ideas on what to cook for Renee. I think she's bored with eating the same old thing over and over again. And I don't blame her.

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While paying for the books at the counter....

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Cashier: Do you have a student card?

Me: *speechless*flattered*shocked*spluttered* Excuse me?

Cashier: Student card?

Me: I'm not a student

Cashier: *shocked* You're not? You look so young!

Me: *laughs* Thanks...but these books are actually for my daughter

Cashier: You're a mother??? But you must be at most 25?

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Choir of angels singing!

Me? 25?

Sheer happiness!

And it took me a hard time convincing her that I was turning 30 this year.

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I should go out more often without Renee.

It really helps boost up my self-esteem.

My latest obsession

I WANT this bag sooooo much it hurts!

I WANT it soooo badly that it's made my everyday life just absolutely horrible because I don't have it.

I've never WANTED anything so bad in my life before.

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Erm....ok, let me rephrase that.

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I've never WANTED anything so bad within this one year before.

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I told hubby if he got it for me, I'd never ask him for anything else for the next 3 years....

And right after I said that, I burst out laughing.

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Ya, I know right....

I can't even believe myself, what more get hubby to believe me.

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But I seriously NEED this bag.

It's a matter of life and death.

For me.

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If I don't have it, how to go back to work and look professional?

HAhahahahahHAHAHAHA!!!

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See, make excuses to get it also I laugh dy.

How la!

So much for proclaiming to the world that we are a peaceful country

...and that we live in unity.

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WHAT UNITY?

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One word and it has caused churches to be burnt down and cars being attacked on the street. So stupid!

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First of all, I don't understand why the Christians insist on using the word "Allah" when they can easily use the word "Tuhan" instead, and especially when they know the word itself has caused so much conflict with the Muslims.

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Second, since when did the word "Allah" belong to the Muslims?

Is it written down in black and white anywhere in the book of life?

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And why is it that such harsh destruction be used to show your anger? Burning down churches? Attacking cars on the road? I don't see masjids being burnt down or your cars being attacked. So who's the barbarian here?

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Is this the way YOUR Allah taught you?

To destroy and burn and wreck things to get your way?

Because honestly, I don't think any God, or Allah or Buddha want things to happen like that.

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So, is it really Allah that you're 'fighting' so hard for?

Or something else?

Bzzzz

As I came down the stairs one day, I heard a loud buzzing sound coming from behind the curtains. Sweeping them aside, I found this...

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...a brown-stripped winged dragonfly sitting at the bottom of my sliding glass doors.

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I have never seen a dragonfly like this before and I was quite impressed by it. For a good 5 minutes, I was kneeling on the floor just looking at it. And the amazing thing, Renee was squatting down right next to me looking at it too. Without moving. For 5 whole minutes!

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I was so impressed to be impressed by a dragonfly which was impressing enough to even impress Renee *grin*

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Impressive, no?

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I also want to announce that the 2nd issue of Critique is out!!!

YAY!!!

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It looks soooooo much better than the first issue.

And I must say, the contents has improved a lot too.

Or then again, maybe I'm just biased because they used RED as the background color for the cover and I do so love red...

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So, why don't you go to your nearest Coffee Bean and grab a free copy and see if this is better than the first yourself!